Winter Blues
It was a few weeks ago during my therapy session that my therapist asked me what precautions I had against seasonal depression. And I was honest with her, vitamin D and UV light are what I have. Along with trying to get outside when it isn’t extremely cold. Though even with those in these last few weeks, I have felt those winter blues already coming on.
It comes to my writing first, not being able to find the right words. Even this I am just sort of letting things flow because it is the only way I can get the words out of my mind. Notes for reviews are harder to take because suddenly I cannot find new ways to tell people about vibration for what seems like suddenly the millionth time. Or how do you put into 750 words why a set of anal beads are lovely? I start to doubt myself and have to walk away. Which is a slippery slope sometimes. I pushed myself rather hard in my writing last month when I chronicled Kinkly and their transphobic actions.
But I have started to find ways to slip around it and slow myself down. Taking new chances on ideas that I thought were silly. Delving into some fun ideas that tie sex toys and witchcraft together again. Making notes about orgasms and spirit work. I change up the scenery in my mind and suddenly it is able to break through the cold that is trying to set in. I settle into painting and more favorite movies that light up the creative parts of my mind. I talk to new friends and enjoy connections with others that I had not had before. Taking joy in getting cards from loved ones who I have missed this year because of the pandemic. Anything to continue to bring warmth to my life.
My plan for the new few weeks is to finish up some lovely wrap-up posts, talk about the things that I loved in this hellscape of a year. Bright just a little joy and hopefully a little laughter to my readers. Because in the end, while I write for myself I also write for the people who read my writing. Especially when it comes to bringing my craft and all things sexual together like the best chocolate and peanut butter. I am so looking forward to sharing those words with you.
I wish I had more words to share with you tonight, but as we get closer to 2021 I am sure I will have more to think about.
Of course, it is also time for my single tarot card reading. I did this reading on the full moon that came up. What that moon needed to share with my readers.
The Moon is a card of illusion, fear, and anxiety. But it is also a card of the subconscious and intuition. Given I did this on the day of the lunar eclipse I was rather amused. This card asks you to look within. There may be a fear or other anxieties holding you back. It might be something internal that you are working on and processing, this card is an indication that you are on the right path with that.
When the Moon card appears, pay close attention to the lunar cycles. Perhaps prepare a ritual for the upcoming new or full moon. Find a connection with the divine feminine, in, however, you might view it to be. Set your intentions and plant them so that you can give them the opportunity to grow. Honor your achievements and look at what you need to release so that new aspects of yourself can shine.
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